Dear Cole

Sometimes I spend so much time thinking about what you just did that drives me crazy that I forget to see YOU! YOU are amazing at being a big brother, at being the oldest (no pressure there, right?), at being the man of the house when dad is gone, at being funny, at being my everything. As I sat there looking at you tonight when you were stealing my quiet time, yet again, I realized how big you've become. You are growing so quickly and I feel that I miss so much of it. Every hectic morning as we are rushing out the door to school and as I drop you off, my heart gets a little sad because I know that I will miss you so much. I LOVE the way you take care of me when I am sick, I LOVE the way you try to take care of me when I am sad or stressed. I don't want to admit it but I feel relieved a little when you throw a fit, or yell, or just not listen....EXACTLY LIKE A FIRST GRADER SHOULD! You have such a good heart, and you are so absolutely loving to everyone and everything. I am so afraid that the next time I turn around you will be a teenager, or even worse ready to move on somewhere else. Just always remember that you promised that you will always live with me no matter what, even when I said no! I love you little man. You make me very proud!! Love, Your Mama